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++a simple gal ++ ++living in her own world++ ++fun-loving yet withdrawn++ ++lively yet silent at times++ ++bimbotic at times++ ++coz reality is just too harsh++ ++but thank God I have you!++ *FM receiver & earphones* *wallet* *phone..Dopod?* *bag..crumpler?or timbuk2?* *digi camera* *new PC/lappy* *Phantom of the Opera* *travel* *spectacles* *..Him..* &...many many more...
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Saturday, March 05, 2005
just back frm watching a moment to remember .... the korean movie...yar...been screening so long le now den i watch it...wols..haa..watched it with piggy qiming...din take attandance though/..haiz...forgot to take camera out..nothing to take also lehz..hmz...a lot of thoughts...so shall blog here now abt my thoughts in case i forget... well well...as i was saying few days ago...i wanted to blog abt something tt i thought abt...hmz....remember i was ill last wk?well...i suddenly had a thought tt time i was horribly sick..coz i felt acheness in my neck n back..so i was thinking...wat if tml i wake up i cant move?or wat if i cant wake up at all?...den i realised tt hey hey hey..im not bothered abt where i go aft im dead..but im bothered abt dying...realised tt i dun wan to leave so soon...coz there's just too much i haven do le...alot of stuffs alot of regrets.... they always say..live each day as though there's no tml....isit? or live each day so that u'll not regret today or soemthing?well...it does not really apply to me...realised tt i have a lot of regrets...alot of indecisions, alot of wrong paths, wrong decisions taken.... oh..btw..this entry is really going to be incoherrent...coz alot of jumbled up thoughts..lazy to sort them out... hmz...oh yah...well...realised tt sometimes ppl do really NOT mean what they said...realised tt sometimes its all white lies....realised that actually i've lost a best friend...realised tt sometimes things are not tt simple as it is...realised tt things can be tt simple.... when asked...if u THINK there's a dead end in front...but dunno if its true or not..would you bother to go infront n check it out?n risk u-turning?guy A likes ger B...guy A dunno how ger B feels....guy A dunno if want to ask ger B n risk the friendship or wait for ger B's hints...hmz...haa..well...both is a risk of friendship hor...if guy A asked ger B, den ger B rejects him..still friends? den if guy A asked ger B, den ger B accepts him...den wat?happily ever after?if not den end relationship..den still friends? den if guy A din ask ger B n ger B is waiting for guy A to ask him..den what?round n round...in circles...when will ppl actually go up to the person they like and confess their "like" for the other party?courage?no fear?confidence?reciprocrated positive acts? and another thing...is it possible to remain friends after u break-up?hmz..depends in different individuals ba i think...im still in contact with my 1st bf, but those very very seldom go out one even though he lives nxt block only..but when we meet up it'll be like..not much awakardness...probably coz we dun htink tt we were once gf n bf ba..haa..so long ago le.. my friend tt day saw me msning aoz n was like.."whoa..i cant be friends with my ex one lehz...u gd manz.." which leads me thinking...hmz...well...i can say tt we are still in contact..as in will sometimes msn each other..but den again...the feeling of loss is emminent ba...like lost a best friend like tt...hmz...oh well...probably coz its like quite recent ba...have to get used to it...get used to being independent and get used to not having a close friend to bitch abt...m getting used to it actually...haa.. hmz..busyness...are u busy coz u have alot of things to do?or are u busy coz u dun want to be free?alot of ppl has been saying tt im super busy ar etc..no time ar..hmz...m i?yah...but den again..if i put together all those time i spend slacking n basically doing nothing, i htink i can score all As liaoz..n be on dean's list...im actually not tt busy lar...haa..still can ask me out one..needa ask in advance for wkend bookings, n for wkdays can ask the day before n i just might be free...haa...oh well ... anywayz...if u believe tt what you are doing makes u happy, den go ahead n do things tt make u happy..afterall, life's short..n precious...n valunerable...really vlaunerable...who noes whats going to happen tml..later...y make urself unhappy over things..y fret over so much things?hmz..i also dunno y ppl just do tt..including me..hmz..maybe its in the pater chapters of my psyc text?haa...but den...remember..whatever u do, there'll be repercussions...so face whatever music it comes... hmz...tml is x-physique...shud rest le...sis is also using comp these few days..ughh..haiz...not psyced my for tml's event lehz...hmz...nvm...shall remember tt have to jump frm bridge tml...tt shud psyc me up...ughh....acrophobia!!!!save me!!!! hee...oh well...if i've offended anyone frm the above grumblings rumblings, pls forgive me..i was typing without thinking..dun even recall now wat the hell i typed...anywayz... *disclaimer: the above characters (if any) are based on the author's imagination and are purely fictional. any coincidence is purely a coincident and nothing else but coincidence.* ugh..horrible grammer. steph @ 3/05/2005 10:02:00 PM
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