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++a simple gal ++ ++living in her own world++ ++fun-loving yet withdrawn++ ++lively yet silent at times++ ++bimbotic at times++ ++coz reality is just too harsh++ ++but thank God I have you!++ *FM receiver & earphones* *wallet* *phone..Dopod?* *bag..crumpler?or timbuk2?* *digi camera* *new PC/lappy* *Phantom of the Opera* *travel* *spectacles* *..Him..* &...many many more...
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Tuesday, August 29, 2006
yeah!! today i am not required to work at the dental clinic!! yeah!! they are letting the new nurse do thenight shift alone! heee...so happy!! but have tuition later though..hm...i hope tml i also dun have to work..haha...anyway yar..will be 'slowly' leaving the clinic since contract teaching gonna start soon...2 more wks...sept 11! dunno the sch yet though..they very slow...will only let me know 1 wk before commencement..which is probably these few days ba...oh well! so its another restful day for me...raining now...shall have to go tuition later...hope at night the weather clears...going for a run tonite.. on a side note...think she forgot to mention thanks to the him who played a part in the 'discussion' that night...so...thanks!!! it was really unexpected...gd actor har...=p steph @ 8/29/2006 01:17:00 PM Sunday, August 27, 2006 A sudden phone call...a sombre conversation...a day set to meet up for further discussion...a girl worried...met up finally with the few and spent some time catching up with them on gossips while waiting. And so finally, the 'discussion' took place at his house. Suspecting nothing at all, she was surprised by the ice-cream brought in, that was followed by a brownie cake with 7 brightly lit candles. She joined in singing the birthday song, not realizing that it was actually meant for her! And hence, when realization sets in, she was really touched...it was so unexpected...no wish was made, only heartfelt thanksgiving. (Or is it as according to one, her wish had already come true? =P ) The candles were relit, this time for him whose birthday was also in July. He was stunned for a moment, as this wasn't in the plan and he knew nothing about this part. So he blew out the candles...any wish made? (Or is it as according to the same one again, his wish had already come true? =P ) For the 3rd time, the candles were relit. The 'happy birthday' sign was replaced by a heart shaped photo of him and her. This time, they had both of them blow out the candles, and cut the brownie cake together. A celebration of them getting together.. To her, this isn't just a surprise. This isn't just a belated celebration. This means a lot to her. She realized once again, how important her friends are in her life, and she is ever so thankful for them. A blessed girl...feeling very blissful...the friends whom she is thankful for...a necklace that means a lot to her...the man who she'll cherish...another phase of life she's looking forward to. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 She will bear this in mind, and will strive towards it. =) steph @ 8/27/2006 07:36:00 PM Friday, August 25, 2006 last week i went over to my sis's place for dinner and durians! here's a photo of me with my younger sis, and my elder sis's 2 kids! haha..cute hor...but rascals ar them!!! __________________________________________________________________________-- feeling healthy these few days! just swam at cck with yh...gd swim dude! and gd timing too! haha..we finished our targeted 10 laps (to n fro = 1 lap) within our targetted time...next time can clock more laps le! went jogging with simon also few nights ago...gd run...better than the attempt i did few nights ago...this time round, i ran more, distance and time wise...ran for almost 1 hr...according to him, it was ard 8K..but i think not so much ba...anywayz, tried to cartwheel...and realised that im still very lousy!!!! ughh like that how can!!! have to practise more!! and have to be braver...realized that the reason might be due to my fear of falling...seems stupid..but i scare i fall down mar...=p...or maybe acrophobia!..fear of height! hahaa...when look down frm my height i scared...ok lame... anywayz, will continue this training regime! i must keep fit!!! anyone free can jio me for sports..tennis, bball, vball, swimming, squash...everything! just jio me manz! haha... oh yar...i drove again today...dad's pickup...seems easier to drive and control aft...you know what..haha...anyawyz, also almost had accidents...thank God didnt have any accidents lar...but die lar...if this continues, how can my dad let me drive ALONE?...probably have to wait till a long time...asked him abt the insurance..he said have to wait till end of aug then his current insurance will expire...hm..wonder if he'll pay additional 800 odd bucks for insuring me? hm...we shall c ba...pray n corss fingers ya! hehe... steph @ 8/25/2006 12:00:00 PM Wednesday, August 23, 2006 ughhh...i've bought a new ext hard disk, and to my disappointment...my pc cant detect it!!! my sis's laptop can detect it though...so i suspected that it could be due to my win xp not updated...or so i was told...i was also told that maybe my driver not updated as well... and so, i borrowed the xp cd from my friend, and got to update my system....and guess what...my customized desktop is gone!!! ughhh...now i have to reconfig everything again!!! and my bookmarks are also gone!!! ughhh...but thank god my files are still intact though...for a moment i though i had formatted the whole pc...-.-.... oh yar..another thing that was gone is my msn icon...ughh...just as i was how lianing to le yesterday abt the cute icon that i like!!!! ughh... somehow this new feel isnt what it used to be..the fonts are smaller...just different from the previous one....or is it that i simply take a long time to adapt to changes? ughh...can you feel my frustrations!!! hahaha..ok lar...ntn serious... BUT!!!! my hard disk still cant work!!!!damn...my pc just cant detect it...even aft i updated the system...hmz...i also installed a usb 2.0 driver..but maybe i didnt install it properly or smt?anyway..bottom line is tat...cant detect...haiz...i suspect that my pc usb is less than 1.1 , 2.0 ...coz the HDD is compliant with usb 1.1, 2,0 ...watever it means...haiz...so sad can... anyway this gives me smt to do for the afternoon ba...trying to config my stuff back..haiz...even933 also works against me..cant listen to the online radio..ughhh..haha.. just realised what a bitchy entry this is...bleah! i want to backup my stuff in my new hard disk!!! steph @ 8/23/2006 12:48:00 PM Monday, August 21, 2006 sat was spent meeting up with the other 3 ladies frm pjc...had a good time chatting, catching up and just talking abt nothing in particular and everything under the sky... it was indeed great meeting up with them, especially huiyi, whom i've not seen since..dunno when...its also a long time since the 4 of us met up! so happy to see you gers!! =) the 4 beauties! daph n steph! huiyi and mik! _______________________________________________________________________- and so...steph is a happy girl once again! certainly, the future is unknown to her, but she knows that all will work out...keep her fears away! she's looking forward to the next chapter of her life! steph @ 8/21/2006 01:05:00 PM Friday, August 18, 2006 a crushing disappointment...an appeal that was unsuccessful...a hope that i bore that was dashed... nevertheless, this will be a challenge for me. maybe this is the best for me, just that i don't realize yet. the path will be tough, i have to put in alot of effort and hardwork...but i pray that in the end, it will all work out. despite this, i know that there are many out there who will support me...tks for the support and help ya! steph @ 8/18/2006 11:26:00 AM Thursday, August 17, 2006 oh no...why is everyone coughing around me!!! i have friends who have cough, dad is also coughing...and I also!!! ughh.... lost my voice a few days ago, now its coming back...but i also have been coughing, which affects my throat as well...not that i have sore throat..but still..the cough is affecting my voice (from coming back)!!! ughh...plus...i think my nose is running away as well...ughh...voice lost, nose run away...wats next? well...next is...my shoebag also left me...not intentionally of coz... i was at long john at JP with tomy, and we left our stuff on the chair to buy our food...so during the time where we placed orders and collection of our food, apparently some china-looking guy came in and took away my shoe bag!!!!ughh!!!i thought it'll be safe as it is very squeezy to go in...to get to our seats, we have to squeeze past another table...apparently, that guy squeezed thru, took my bag, and than squeezed past a table and walked away!!! the table's occupants, a malay couple asked if i had lost anything, i said my shoebag..den her husband went to search for that guy but to no avail...ughhh... but kinda funny lar...thank God he only steal my shoebag and not tomy's or my pouch...else it wont be so funny...but still..very funny as to why the hell would he want to take my shoebag!!!!my nelgene is also attached to my shoebag with a carabina..haiz...that nelgene has been with me for a long time lor..thru thick n thin..haiz..nvm..heng i have another nelgene...can use it already...=p anywayz, have been working at the dental clinis again after a long time of MIA-ing..the past 2 days of work is not that bad, dentist wasnt very grouchy so its gd to work with him. today and fri, and whole of nxt wk i won't be free in the evenings..have to work...but I will go running next week..after my cough is gone..and my nose is back...hahaha... to all who are sick out there, take care ya! drink more water, take the necessary medication...get well soon ya! steph @ 8/17/2006 12:06:00 PM Monday, August 14, 2006 some random photos... the august babies of su13 programmerz... also my only cake for my 22nd bday..hee.. su13 testing out the shades..not mine..colin's sp nite... not alot of photos..shall post up more when i have them...till then.. steph @ 8/14/2006 05:11:00 PM
watched click yesterday... isnt it good if everything in life works out well for u? isnt it wonderful if all the bad times can be skipped away, fast-forwarded to the next good time? isnt it great if you can mute away all the unnecessary noise (like mum naggings, neighbour's metal band jammin away, children shrieking for no reasons, quarrellings, etc etc)? wont it be better if you can just stop things in action, so instead of having to make spilt second decisions, you get to think about how to react, and then click play and hey! a gd decision made. how good it will be if you can just go back into your life, and replay certain events...yeah...very good... well, people tend to overwork, and miss the important things in life. "work IS important" they'd counter..but there are simply more in life than simply work and being able to provide for your family. relationships, with friends, family, loved ones, with God, etc, are far more important i'd say...there are some things that people tend to miss in life... hmz... i've been getting coments from friends that i've always been so busy...till now after graduation, im still as busy as ever...busy..hmz..probably they say that coz i haven been spending time with them ba...some also told me to have some time for myself and have ample rest at times...hmz..think its possible to be busy playing ba...i think im really too busy playing that i dun have much time for myself..haha..oh well...shal see how it goes..coz i think the next few wks will be the time where i can rest before the next chapter in life begins..yeahz... on a side note..i've lost my voice..ughh...been coughing also due to throat itchy...irritating..i want my voice back!! =p till then, please cherish the things and people around you...you never know when time zips by and u lose them. love ya all lots! steph @ 8/14/2006 04:05:00 PM Wednesday, August 09, 2006 she wonders alot...she wanders around alot too. sometimes, she'll stray and go off track...but always, somehow, she'll manage to find her way back. she does not like it when she is indecisive. yet she feels that she cant make proper decisions. sometimes, she yearned for a clue...or something..to let her know that she's making the right choice. at times, she asked herself why is it that she cant be firm sometimes. afterall, it's her choice. but many times, there are just too many factors to think from. which made it even more frustrating, as she feels that she has to think from all perspective...yet often failed to do so. she feels that she always did things in a haste. and hence often regret not waiting, not looking at the bigger picture. however, regrets will soon be replaced by hope..hope that things will be better. and always, things are always better...afterall, some things cant just get any worse. but sometimes, what she needs is a souce of motivation. a word of encouragement. something to spur her on, something to enable her to persevere on in her choice. in times of uncertainty, all she needs is just a sign. motivation, encouragement...to let her know that things are just going to be okay. she'll get it. yupz. steph @ 8/09/2006 08:11:00 PM Monday, August 07, 2006 well, sunday...that's yesterday...i was struggling to stay awake during the sermon!! think i dozed off...ughh...very bad of me..=p...no more overnighters on sat nite manz! (haha...as if!!..) anywayz, was really trying my best not to sleep during service...had to move ard as if very restless...ughh... aft the sermon, it wasnt that bad...we watched a video of Andy and Ching Lee and their 2 children...the church's missionaries...who have to leave this wk to go to mekong, in china. gonna miss them so much...i've known them since i joined church, and they were both very very nice people...very caring, very loving (to us, as well as to each other and also to their kids!) a very gd example to us...haiz...yar...gonna miss them...almost a tearful farewell for me as well, coz i saw alicia tearing up when saying her farewell...haiz...i cant be there sending off them on fri nite, coz of another camp, hence yesterday was the last day i saw them, at least..until they came back..nxt year?not sure...but really thankful for their friendship, their sharings, for them. May God bless them, and be with them, on this journey! =) so aft church, i went to celebrate my ah ma's bday...nothing much, just a dinner near my house..whole extended family was there...had a really FULL lunch...but was really tired...and after reaching home, i concussed...slept for a very very long time!!! haha...think i got back my lost hours of sleep already! yeah!! i want to eat durians...and pizza...ughh...haha...my latest cravings! and i wanna watch fireworks too!!! yeahz...this wk shall be a rather lobo week for me, except my evenings, which are pretty much burnt frm looks of it...hmz...meetings, bdays, briefings, and camps...well...its only monday! enjoy ur wk ppl!! =) steph @ 8/07/2006 12:21:00 PM Saturday, August 05, 2006 a rare Saturday that I’m at home...been real busy with camps that i've not been spending quality time, be it simply alone, or with my family. am taking today to do some reflections...(i hope it does not stop simply at admiring myself in the mirror! =p ) was real tired these few days..probably coz didnt rest enough aft sp0rts camp den i went for kids camp already...and also did not get enough rest during the kids camp..anyway, the kids camp went well...though i believe it could have been better...small issues overlooked...oh well...nxt camp will be better! watched lake house too...wasnt that good...haha..felt that the plot lacked something...wasnt even touching or sad or anything...rather puzzling at times...how could they have gotten together when they are separated by time? anyway, just received my convo pics...tks to edmund for lending me his camera during my convo...my creative is simply too...'advanced' (backwards rather) for people to use! but i still feel that i look better using my creative camera! hee... anywayz, was looking thru the photos..and realised...once again, that i have officially graduated...(i dun have the convo bear though!! =( haa..was telling mom that i dun wan lar..but thinking back..maybe shud had gotten it..=p ) have to thank my parents...dad and mom...esp for the day of convo..think they were proud of me! haha...its not often that i can feel dad being proud of me, with him being the solemn dad, strict but crappy sometimes...yupz...quite proud that they are proud of me! =) had lunch in can a with them, introduced them to jap food..but forgot that my dad dun really like to eat 'hard' stuff..haha..but nontheless, he still finished the food...told them about the canteen, the lib that was upstairs..how i used to spend my time in the lib followed by dinner in can a during exam period...he drove me around too, frm audi to src...and frm src to can 2, and back again...they saw the programmers at work too! haha...pool games..i managed to go to the pool to take photos with some of the programmers! tks to cuimei...=) yupz..kudos to my parents! thankful for that day, to them! mum and dad! mummy! the HR cohort..well..some of us... the 5 sisters...sini and debbie...we missed you!!! da jie and me! sister amanda and me! me with qiulin! elin and I! brother junbin! we graduated!! the LIMs! sports camp ppl! dear friend, cuimei programmers at the pool!! me and my event ic, jo! PROGRAMMERS and friends of sp0rts camp ! steph @ 8/05/2006 04:01:00 PM Tuesday, August 01, 2006 well..i'm back!!! the last week was sp0rts camp 13! yeah..my 3rd camp as a programmer!! was really a good camp...shag but nonetheless fun! more pics to be posted soon!! and also, i had my convocation last wk too! went back in the middle of camp to my convo! mum and dad were there! good old daddy din wear cargo pants as he wanted to! hahaha..heng ar...was quite a touching at times, esp when we had to wave and thank our parents...saw my parents waving at me also...hee...nice...but other than that..rather boring...was in a rush, so i din really iron my gown...ughh..and also dunno how to put on that thing...in the end..think it wasnt well worn..ughhh... well, i'm back! but will be gone for the nxt 3 days! hahaha...so..dun miss me! will be back again on fri! i wanna exercise!!! and also watch lake house!!! okiez...till den..friends take care! steph @ 8/01/2006 12:20:00 PM
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