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++a simple gal ++ ++living in her own world++ ++fun-loving yet withdrawn++ ++lively yet silent at times++ ++bimbotic at times++ ++coz reality is just too harsh++ ++but thank God I have you!++ *FM receiver & earphones* *wallet* *phone..Dopod?* *bag..crumpler?or timbuk2?* *digi camera* *new PC/lappy* *Phantom of the Opera* *travel* *spectacles* *..Him..* &...many many more...
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Thursday, May 19, 2005
well...read afew friends' blog...realised that yeh its been a long time since i've actually sit down and talk to someone..talk as in really talk, telling about my problems, my thoghts, and share some experiencecs...n also hear someone talk abt one's life...the most recent person whom i "heard" from is also probably mik, during tt breakfast...hey ger glad to c u but too bad time was against us...=) huiyi ar..i miss u alot also lehz...gRRrrrRRr...haiz...but den again, i also dun initiate to meet up...haiz...busy me... up to my neck these few weeks...used to be up to my neck previous wks with tuitions...but now still ok...their exams over le...for now...this wk im super busy with programmers..sports camp preparations... well well...read kerk's blog also...agreed that in life, there are alot of things that i'll never do..also realised that in life, there are many things which i can do, but i chose not to. also, there are many things in life which i shouldn't do, but i did. regrets, remorse, guilt, sadness, hurt, disappointment, hopeless feelings...on the other hand, happiness, kindness, laughter, smiles, hugs,hope keeps us going. setbacks in life are a lesson. to be able to move on, we must understand where is the mistake, what had gone wrong. the promise that such mistakes will not be repeated is made. life goes on.. once a glass breaks, there will always be cracks no matter how good u send it for mending. cracks are a weakness. you are as strong as your weakness. i despise weak ppl. its all a matter of mind. u can keep your promise if your mind is strong enough. promises are all but empty words. you can promise one thing, but forget about it a minute later. so, who is true to his words? what can make you be true to your words? crying is a sign of weakness.it shows that you are hurt. it shows that you are not as strong as you want others to think you r. crying brings back bad memories. only bad memories make u cry. tears are precious..yet they are worthless at times. have u ever felt your heart squeeze with a dull ache, and felt teasrs rolling unceremoniously down your cheeks?have you ever cursed tears as they fall from your eyes?have you ever berated yourself for showing such weakness?have you ever blame the person/thing/event which caused the damned tears to flow? why?why is it that you can cry for someone?you can cry for something that had happened?because you care. if you care enough, you will be able to feel the hurt, the sadness, or sometimes, the happiness which caused you to tear. care.love.feel. people cry when someone is leaving them. people cry when they are touched. people also cry when they feel happy. you dun like to be weak. yet you know that you show signs of weakness.. you dun believe in promises, coz there's simply no strong people around to fulfil the promises made to you. you don't believe in love anymore, yet you still felt the dull ache in your heart. you smile everyday especially so when you are feeling sad. just a cover-up, to conceal your weakness. you ask yourself, when is it going to end. when are you going to stop feeling this down. yet at the same time, small things happening around you makes u feel happy. you start to appreciate those so-called "cheap trills" coz simply, they can brighten your day. *disclaimer: the "I" and "you" and "he" and "we" and "she" mentioned above do not refer to anyone in particular, living or dead. any similiarity to anyone is purely coincidental.* food for thought.think. steph @ 5/19/2005 09:00:00 PM
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